Saturday, February 13, 2010

Hesitation, Sputters and Enlightenment


After due deliberation, this morning I clicked onto my blog with a clear intention of deleting it. Not the first time I've been down the quitter path. My reasons for waffling regarding this blog are several: Lack of comments; nothing to write about; just plain boring. All taken into consideration, I made the clear-cut decision to wipe it from the face of cyber-land. Delete it. Let other blogs clog the continuum. I'm certain the world will survive without my rants.

Yet...just before the deleting process, I re-read my most recent blog posted on January 27 of 2010. Another rant about the Universe's choosing me as its latest whipping boy, the post subtly forced me to reflect. Its closing line says, "Everything does happen to me, and that's a good thing because hope is eternally on my side."

These past months of the New Year have been a wilder ride than anything Disney can offer. But after reading the post I was reminded that all isn't lost, that life unfolds uncontrollably and it's up to us to make the proverbial "lemonade" out of it.

If for no other reason, my blogs are self-serving in a good way. They don't preach to the masses, but act as an outlet for my angst and joy (and whenever the latter decides to make an appearance, I'll be very appreciative).

Thus, the blog stays. I'm keeping it for me. It's not about promotion or hoping for comments. It's about self-revelation.

It brings me peace. Who can say they can't live without a small slice of that in their lives?

4 comments:

Robin said...

I'm so glad you decided to keep your blog! I'd really miss you. I love getting news from you - bad or good - because it keeps us in touch. I really wish we lived closer to each other because I think we could get on rather famously in person. Remember, all of us struggle with things, and on days when you might be feeling especially blue, remember there's girl in California thinking of you. :)

Kath Calarco said...

Oh, Binks, I wish we lived closer, too. :-( But, seeing you here is almost as good. Believe me, I always feel your good thoughts.

((HUGS)) You are the best!

Natasha Fondren said...

I'm glad you decided to keep it, too! I'm glad you blog, and I'm glad I'm not the only one who struggles with my writing.

It's funny, I was going to blog this morning about delete-itis. But I deleted it. I feel like all I've done lately is complain about writing, but really, I do love it, LOL. Maybe I'll write it again. :-)

Kath Calarco said...

Natasha, great minds think alike (as tired out as that cliche is, it sums it up perfectly). I'll be hopping to your blog to see how you're handling "delete-itis." :-)